I’m Pregnant!

“Sitting in a hospital room”

I’m pregnant! This is where I found myself just a few months ago, sitting in a hospital room waiting to have a CT Scan done to try to find out what was wrong with me. I had an incident a few months prior that I thought was causing all of the digestive issue’s and extreme fatigue that I was having. Issue’s so bad that I could not function properly most days and just seemed to worsen as time went on.

“Why am i soo tired?”

I was really going through a Season of questioning God, wondering why was this happening to me? What was the purpose for all of this? Did I do something wrong? Everyday seemed to roll into the next, and I was just ready for them to end! At the time I was working full time, and doing a lot of driving and movement for my job. I would come home and literally just crash on the couch and fall asleep. I had absolutely NO energy, I couldn’t even do things that were simple like make dinner or vacuum without it being an extreme effort. And for me that was the most off putting, because I have always been very energetic and active, GO GO GO…

“Flowers grow in the valley’s”

To work 4/10 hour days every week and then some, come home everyday to cook and clean and still want to be able to work-out and go for walks was nothing, that was normal. So when I started to feel the extreme fatigue it was so unreal to me. It began to put me into a place where I really did not want to be. I did a lot of driving back and forth to my jobs and would listen to Family Life Radio, and there was this song that always came on and it would just break me down! I would cry asking God to show me why… It was “Flowers” by Samantha Ebert, that song had just came out at that time, now as i hear that song, and look back I can only cry now in GRATITUDE for what He has done! I can see His marvelous Hands working in this whole situation that I felt was hopeless!

The LORD is Good! He says in His Word that:

Romans 8:28

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
King James Version (KJV)

Knowing that I am Loved by God, and that my trials were not meaningless because I Love Him is a great comfort for me. We are never promised a great, fulfilled life where we never encounter any problems and everything is easy! In fact for the Believer it is the exact opposite, we are promised tribulation, rejection, trials, testing. But the prize of Eternal Life makes all of that pale in comparison. Not that we work for Salvation! That was accomplished at the Cross by Jesus our Lord and Saviour.

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
King James Version (KJV)

When my Husband and I were sitting in the hospital room waiting for my CT Scan, they give a woman a pregnancy test before to make sure you are not pregnant. We were completely OBLIVIOUS.. lol… We have been together for almost 15 years and nothing has happened thus far, we were to the point where we just thought it would NEVER happen for us. And we just accepted that as God’s will. But when our nurse came in to do the test and tested in front of us, as we heard

” UUmm, this is definitely positive! “

we were taken back, like this has to be wrong! I said ” Are you sure, how accurate are those things? ” Apparently VERY…. lol… So now everything is on hold, we are left in the room just looking at each other in disbelief and amazement! Instead of a CT Scan that day we had an Ultrasound. And now as we left to head home instead of Husband and Wife we are now Mom and Dad. At that moment I realized that all of my problems and pain was for the most Beautiful reason!

” I’m Pregnant, I’m going to be a Mom! “

I couldn’t ever imagine this is where I would be at 37 going on 38, and my Husband 40, but the Lord has plans for each and every one of us! He created us with intent and purpose.

Micah 6:8

“He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?”
King James Version (KJV

I feel like my life has sooo much more purpose now! All the pain, the uncertainty, pure exhaustion, un answered questions all leading up to that moment when I would get the answer I was seeking. Now I am almost 8 months and every single movement and kick, to the BIG stretches I feel inside of me, HUMBLE me… I am so thankful that my Husband and I get to experience this most GRATIFYING new chapter in our lives! We are looking forward to meeting him, to holding him. To be honored with this most precious GIFT from God, WOW!

Jeremiah 1:5

“Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee…”
King James Version (KJV)

Every single baby is a Gift from God. Let us cherish the most innocent, precious beings created for a Mom like me and a Dad to be. Now that I’m pregnant, I couldn’t imagine never had been given this chance to want to pour all of myself into someone else like I do now! It is amazing how the Lord changes the heart. I know I never expected it and many women and young girls out there don’t either. But knowing that we have been Blessed with this most precious responsibility, makes one grateful. I will definitely be posting very soon on this new journey I’m on. Stay Blessed friends…

Amanda Crane…